oh god. someone up there help me please.
i am facing a huge dilemma.
okaye,
two dilemmas actually. one is a more realistic problem, and the other's kind of, well, frivalous in comparison XD
so yes, back to my dilemmas.
number one, ntu has sent me an email asking me to go down for a scholarships interview.
but i'm
a little, rather, pretty, kind of almost sure that i wanna go nus. i am also extremely kiasu and think that its really wasted if i don't go down for it. and the online appraisal ms ouyang wrote would go to waste. so being the disgusting procrastinator i am, i kept putting this off right from the very first day i saw the email. and wow, before i could even realise it, time flew past and
today is the freaking deadline for me to indicate my response. and ntu even called me during lunch today to ask me about it. the conversation went sth like this:
me: hello?
ntu: hi, i'm calling from ntu regarding the scholarships interview. your timeslot is actually blablabla. erm, have you checked your email?
me: (panics) erm, no.. i haven't checked my email lately. (smiles guilty-ly to self)
ntu: oh ok, its actually scheduled for you on blablabla. can you make it?
me(in my mind): oh dear. oh no. shit.howhowhow.
me: erm, is it okay if i go and check my email first about the details and i reply you by mail?
ntu: oh sure. please do so by today alright? today's the deadline.
me(in my mind): shitttttttttt ;__;
me: oh sure! thank you very much!
ntu: thanks.
(hangs)
hahahahah i am such a horrible girl. but i'm still considering so i really didn't know how to reply his question! :/ so i thought the best way was to feign ignorance. i ought to get shot, i know XD
i've consulted a few people and they all think i shouldnt go for it since i'm going nus. but i can't prevent myself from being greedy and kiasu! :( and yes, i admit, i'm very auntie. urghhh. okay somehow once i've typed this out and reflected on my actions this dilemma is kind of uncalled for and really kind of stupid. but i'm kind of lazy to go for the interview, and i kind of know that i will not go ntu. but i'm still kiasu.
sigh. but something in me tells me that i will end up not going cos
its on a monday morning,which means i have to take leave, plus its in some ulu area i'm very lazy and am reluctant to go prepare for the interview.
(sighs)
okay on to dilemma number two. XD (which everyone will roll their eyes at and not bother reading on)
i feel like shipping in this very wonderful arashi concert dvd (Arashi Around Asia 2008 in Tokyo) because its really really nice to watch. and the concert venue is like at kokuritsu, the national stadium and its the place where tokyo held the tokyo olympics back in 1964. and they're the third group to have performed there after SMAP and dreams come true, both very big names in the music industry. so it's like something huge. its a milestone! plus, all the songs and stage lightings,settings etc were so amazing! the behind the scenes was really interesting too! and how do i know all this? cos i've watched the whole thing online before. (faints)
so having watched it before, i know exactly how fantastic it is. if i ship it in, it wont be anything fresh anymore since i have watched all the contents. but its so fantastic that i wanna own it. it's about S$46 though and i don't know if i will regret buying it. i mean, there's only so many times that u can continue to rewatch a concert dvd, right?
asdfghjkl i dont know if i should buy it or not. (pulls hair)
it'd be nice to watch them on the big tv screen as compared to my tiny computer monitor though.
(sighs again)
why do i even bother to think so much. T__T it's making my head hurt with relatively unnecessary worries and considerations.
Labels: arashi, rantings:personal, university matters
